If you were to step outside of the emotional entanglement of how this feels to you, I believe you would see that your “purpose” of service is not on hold. And also this is an opportunity to hold fast to what you know to be true: Your complete goodness and deservedness to have all your soul desires.

The contract they made you sign is not “okay” (you said several times that this or that was “okay” with you and no big deal in the video) … let me explain, and of course, this is my opinion and please I trust you to find your truth and your way

It is not okay to ask you to be under supervision, it is not okay to ask you to check in weekly to debrief (???) with someone else. It is not okay that your clients must be fully clothed for their treatments. It is not okay to be on probation for two years.

It is patronizing and presumptuous and out of context with the actual incident and resulting fine–and your subsequent authentic change of path and greatly expanded educational accomplishments, as well as following the routine requirements for licensure–for the board to think they can control and manipulate you in this way. I find it to be unhealthy on their part and disrespectful of you.

Yes, you *are* a skilled healer and no more needs to be said about your past than a brief sentence or two. “I was a tantric, erotic, sensual bodyworker and have left that practice and am now a licensed therapeutic non-sexual non-sensual massage therapist utilizing a wide array of modalities tailored to my individual clients’ needs.”

(Of course, telling one’s story is healing and being transparent is awesome. I only mention this because it seems several times during the video that you felt an extra need to explain yourself which I want to advocate that you do not necessarily need to.)

I think you get to say once what you do NOW. If you owe the board money I think a payment plan can be set up based on what you can do.

The issue is the fine.

What I want to do is reach in there and remind you that this is about them, not you. It is about their freaking out and it has nothing to do with your intelligence, healing abilities, worth as a human being. It does not reflect on your value, on your validity. It does not make you any less of a healer or any less of a professional.

Keep on focusing on the fact that you love this work, it is your calling in the world and that you deserve to have that private practice.

It is a reality coming into manifest being. Your private practice. A thriving longterm, viable, powerful retreat for your clients who do need you. Know, again, that this reaction, these letters are about the person who sent them and that time has long past that you had anything to do with the issue which created this.

The only thing you now create is by holding onto even a tiny amount of shame.

Releasing any fraction of any sense of any shame now is paramount. Wholehearted joy and bliss and love and confidence radiating back toward the board. Complete confidence in your expertise, complete confidence in your integration as a wise and perceptive healer, complete truth and reality that the work you do is no longer a tantric, erotic service, (which is nothing to be in any way ashamed of but also deeply proud of) but is now for the general public and in order to serve even a larger populace and family-oriented broader base of those in need no matter what anyone’s freaked-out mind might do, that is about them not about you.

You must understand and release all the pain, in my opinion, about anything personal about these letters and how they are treating you.

They are not about your character or judgment or ability.

If anything this is merely the Universe bringing you a strengthening challenge in order that you might use even this as an avenue to help others, yet again.

Bliss to you, dear Wahkeena … hoping you can visit Rawprincess Studio and speak to us here in Portland …

in~purposeful~ecstasy
cindy

(guess who inspired my signature)

I’m definitely tuning into relaxing into this and allowing the process to unfold perfectly as it wants to… letting go of attachments or projections for what i think it’s supposed to look like and allow spirit to guide me on this path.

and undoubtedly, it will be something new. In fact, it already is…. and I have yet to unveil my new creative project…. but bodywork will always be a part of the toolbelt.

THANK YOU!!
xoxoxox
~s

Is there really a need to point fingers at those who have stockpiled money… or do you think that maybe we all need to simply look within and embody our own beliefs… carefully carefully with deep contemplation, make sure that you aren’t about to hurl a rock at any human no matter what you perceive to be wrong with them you are only responsible for your own soul and your actions impact the world greatly even if you don’t own a penny

wasn’t Gandhi right?? be the change, don’t expect anyone else to change
embrace the good, you are free, make a difference and when those who have worshiped riches are left in ruins, reach out to them

ahhhh, and the fresh juice sounds great. did that yesterday morning too. great way to start the day.

blessings & gratitude ~;~

you should check out http://www.rawfamily.com/ – they have a book about Green Smoothies, it’s interesting & worth checking out.. they really suggest using raw greens in smoothies on a daily basis.