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Balancing Fire Energy

I have 6 planets in fire signs; four of them in Leo. My sun sign is Leo, and my moon is in Aries – which means I have a strong stubborn streak. I have long attracted a number of Fire sign people in my life, especially powerhouse Shakti-Mama women. We’re a challenging bunch of people. I am in love with every fire sign kindred spirit that I have in my life, but there is something about the Fire Sign personality that is so intense and can be so challenging for people to be in relationship with. Sometimes I scorn the Aries energy in me, but it’s not going away; you have to love and accept yourself and come to a state of self-knowledge in order to be at peace with oneself and life.

Today someone said to me that he sees me as very emotionally detached and reserved. He asked where I was at emotionally, considering I am on the Big Island. He said most people come here to the Big Island and go through a lot of intensity because Pele stirs up so much emotion and fire energy. I then told him about my planets in Fire signs, and that I have a lot of fire energy. I told him that in my best moments in life, I am like the ultimate ADD child on psychedelic fire; I can be a wild, torrential rain of ecstatic Shakti energy – but completely ungrounded and oblivious to everything around me. So, I’ve been forced to learn to temper my flames and ground my energy, because it’s really the only option for day to day living. I’ve had to cool down and focus on relaxing and cultivating a grounded energy body – it’s quite a work in progress, but it’s where my intention is. I’m kind of like Pele, with a lot of intense, fire energy stirring within, trying to allow it all to settle down and become hard, dense stone.

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Transforming Repression of Divine Feminine

Published in Toward 2012: Perspectives on the Next Age

A gentleman came to see me some time ago. This gentleman was carrying a lot of wounds around his sexuality, related to his adolescent use of pornography. Because he held so much anger towards his father, due to the emotional charge of that relationship, he released it and expressed it while he was masturbating to pornography. Thus, as he evolved and grew into an adult, his entire sexual relationship with himself was expressed as an act of aggression, releasing his pent up negative energy, and thus he was never able to merge his heart with his sexual energy. He acted out his aggression with women with whom he had a low esteem of, women who were easy to be judgmental of, always magnetizing himself to women who had low self-esteem and unresolved abuse issues. And simultaneously, he was never able to be present with them, he was often disassociated from them in a porn fantasy; thus he never sensually embraced them. He was unable to be present with them in the body, loving them or worshipping their juicy feminine shakti. And with the women he loved, and held a strong heart connection with, he was unable to cultivate sexual energy or desire with. It was this split, this huge emotional wound, that he desperately longed to release and transform, and thus he came to see me; a tantric bodyworker. He left a mind-blown man, as he’d never been that fully present in his body during any sexual experience in his entire life and indeed he had his very first full body orgasm. He asked for help, he stated his intention for transformation, and received what he asked for because he was clear about what he wanted.

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