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Balancing Fire Energy

I have 6 planets in fire signs; four of them in Leo. My sun sign is Leo, and my moon is in Aries – which means I have a strong stubborn streak. I have long attracted a number of Fire sign people in my life, especially powerhouse Shakti-Mama women. We’re a challenging bunch of people. I am in love with every fire sign kindred spirit that I have in my life, but there is something about the Fire Sign personality that is so intense and can be so challenging for people to be in relationship with. Sometimes I scorn the Aries energy in me, but it’s not going away; you have to love and accept yourself and come to a state of self-knowledge in order to be at peace with oneself and life.

Today someone said to me that he sees me as very emotionally detached and reserved. He asked where I was at emotionally, considering I am on the Big Island. He said most people come here to the Big Island and go through a lot of intensity because Pele stirs up so much emotion and fire energy. I then told him about my planets in Fire signs, and that I have a lot of fire energy. I told him that in my best moments in life, I am like the ultimate ADD child on psychedelic fire; I can be a wild, torrential rain of ecstatic Shakti energy – but completely ungrounded and oblivious to everything around me. So, I’ve been forced to learn to temper my flames and ground my energy, because it’s really the only option for day to day living. I’ve had to cool down and focus on relaxing and cultivating a grounded energy body – it’s quite a work in progress, but it’s where my intention is. I’m kind of like Pele, with a lot of intense, fire energy stirring within, trying to allow it all to settle down and become hard, dense stone.

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Observing the Mind of Dissatisfaction

I have discovered a new favourite method of emotional cleansing & clearing. I’ve only just learned this method some seven months ago, when I did my very first Blessed Herbs colon cleanse. I take baths, ritually, preparing the space for me to do some deep healing work on myself, culminating in several rounds of enemas. I gather all the necessary tools; bath salts, essential oils in the water, music, water, tea, smudge, but most importantly – the enema bag. I do my first round with half coffee – half water, following on subsequent rounds with pure water. I’ve grown to love doing three rounds of the coffee enema ritual, and have taken to doing maybe once or twice a month, as needed – when the need to clear out some heavy-hearted emotions arises.

The most incredible meditations come through when I’m releasing with the enema. I squat on top of the toilet and release both waste and emotions. And the magic, I’ve learned, comes in through a deep state of relaxation – both in the mind and in the sphincter muscles. As I relax deeply, the colon releases more and more completely, and I go deeper and deeper into a profound state of meditation. It has become one of my favorite spiritual practices, because it facilitates opening up and surrendering and releasing the mind & thoughts & hurts & pains & frustrations. And I always seem to emerge lighter and brighter than I felt in the hours before.

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