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Observing the Mind of Dissatisfaction

by Wahkeena Sitka|on March 23, 2009 |in Awareness & Consciousness, Healing |tagged , , , , , , |3 Comments

I have discovered a new favourite method of emotional cleansing & clearing. I’ve only just learned this method some seven months ago, when I did my very first Blessed Herbs colon cleanse. I take baths, ritually, preparing the space for me to do some deep healing work on myself, culminating in several rounds of enemas. I gather all the necessary tools; bath salts, essential oils in the water, music, water, tea, smudge, but most importantly – the enema bag. I do my first round with half coffee – half water, following on subsequent rounds with pure water. I’ve grown to love doing three rounds of the coffee enema ritual, and have taken to doing maybe once or twice a month, as needed – when the need to clear out some heavy-hearted emotions arises.

The most incredible meditations come through when I’m releasing with the enema. I squat on top of the toilet and release both waste and emotions. And the magic, I’ve learned, comes in through a deep state of relaxation – both in the mind and in the sphincter muscles. As I relax deeply, the colon releases more and more completely, and I go deeper and deeper into a profound state of meditation. It has become one of my favorite spiritual practices, because it facilitates opening up and surrendering and releasing the mind & thoughts & hurts & pains & frustrations. And I always seem to emerge lighter and brighter than I felt in the hours before.

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Mistake-Ability

by Wahkeena Sitka|on October 18, 2008 |in Awareness & Consciousness |tagged , , , , , , |1 Comment

We make mistakes. We are human beings; imperfect, unconscious some of the time, selfish and not thinking wisely always. Other human beings tend to look at us and make judgments about our lack of integrity. This I have come to accept is one of the primary rules or by-laws about living as a human being; that you must come to accept that other people will judge you. I feel that ultimately we all want peace of mind, which comes through a sense of integrity. But sometimes our integrity slips, and we act out of lack; we steal, we tell lies, we cut someone short, we fall through with our agreement, we don’t do the dishes, we are late, etc.. The human story is one of drama, the drama of our experience, and our shared experience with other people. So many times, the story of “the drama” is a continuing saga of people frustrated with each other’s lack of integrity; judging each other, holding each other accountable, and creating grudges. Thus creating psychic energies that have to be dealt with, healed, released, and oftentimes painfully evolved through.

We are imperfect human beings, we make mistakes, and we want to be loved. We want to be loved and accepted because ultimately it makes us happy and feel good about life and ourselves. Being loved gives us a sense of wholeness that we often feel we lack, and we look to the relationships in our lives to bring us that state of wholeness and completion in our being. But then those that love us, witness our lack of wholeness, witness our lack of integrity and our mistake-ability, and begin judging us and withdrawing their love bit by bit. We feel hurt, we feel abandoned, we feel betrayed, we feel confused, we feel judged. We become angry and seek vengeance on those we loved.

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